too much boring chit chat
Last night, I had to attend a work event. Tonight, I attended a neighborhood dinner party which is an attempt by one of my neighbors to get us all to bond. It actually is a nice idea and wasn't all that bad. Not as bad as the work event, where I only lasted twenty minutes.
It seems that without alcohol I have no ability to stand around and chit chat on a social basis. I feel awkward and uncomfortable and tend to cling to the few people I know rather than get around and meet others.
I hate that. I don't want to drink. But I don't like feeling this way at events either. And I can't avoid them completely. A certain amount of socializing is required at work as "team building" and it's the way working relationships are formed. As for things that don't involve work, my husband likes to socialize and I can't deprive him completely of the opportunity. He likes to drink occasionally too, although he only had a couple tonight.
Anyway it's made me grumpy and I suppose I better do a gratitude list:
tomorrow will be ten weeks of hangover free mornings
tomorrow we will celebrate my Dad's 84th birthday with a potluck party. In September it didn't look like he'd make 84 and I'm very grateful he is around for one more year of our annual get together
I am grateful that I HAVE a job that enables me to support my family
and that I have neighbors who care enough to try to get to know each other