Independence Day
Today, I'm not grateful for anything. I drank again three weeks ago and have been drinking regularly since.
I also lost all of my favorite bookmarks when some thing called Starware hijacked my computer and took over my home page.
So today, I'm sitting here trying to figure out how to get back on track. I feel like a failure of course.
I want to be independent of alcohol forever.
posted by Redhead Gal at 8:22 AM
20 Comments:
I would one day be able to drink like a gentlemen. But it will never happen.
You've gotten clean before so i'm sure you can do it again. Don't feel like a failure. I am an addict too and like you have been clean only to fall back into it again. Be glad your alive and have the chance to sort out your life. That inner strength will come when you least expect it....
You already know what to do, so none of that from me.
Just remember you don't have to feel this way any more. Ever again.
Go to it, Redhead Gal! You've succeeded before. You will do it again.
Red...I'm with dAAve. Welcome back!
I see you,
JJ
New to your blog. Don't know the details. Don't need to. I am an alcoholic. Hope it clicks soon.
God could and would if he were sought.
Hang tight,
G~
What daave said :)
I am glad you posted again...
Thanks for sharing ~
Wishing you all good things, Redhead Gal.
I've felt what you're feeling so many times, the feeling never gets any better, and strangely, I can't ever remember how bad it felt BEFORE I start drinking...only afterwards. Sucks that way. I'm hoping for you and I empathize and sympathize. I always hated that gratitude thing, but at least you're alive to feel like shit. I guess that's one thing.
And no, it wasn't ever enough for me either. :))
Hey, Redhead Gal. I'm with Faith. I'm in the same boat as you. Started drinking again a couple of weeks ago, and have been doing it on a regular basis ever since. This sucks. I hope it helps even a little to know you are not alone, and that we're all wishing only good things for you. Recently, I heard from a very reliable source that the average number of times an addict will relapse before truly attaining sobriety/recovery is 6. That's the average, so that means that some people never relapse, and some of us do it more than 6 times before getting it right. Hang in there!
I am truly grateful you are back and you have came out with your honesty. You are never alone . . . keep trudging with us, even if you trip and fall we will still love you.
Redhead Gal, I know it is easy to say "don't feel like a failure" just as much as I know I do too many times. As others have said, we are all here with you and know what you are going though. You will find the strength and the flip will switch an you will start over. Today is just day 3 of who-knows-how-many-attemps at a life of sobriety for me and I already fear this weekend. Keep us all posted, we're are here for you.
You are doing what comes naturally for alcoholics. Drink. There is a solution. I echo dAAve...you don't have to feel like this anymore.
hope you are doing ok.
keep us posted if you are up to it.
Of course you feel like a failure. Your illness wants you to feel that way. That isn't the reality. I am sure everyone here would say, "let us love you until you can love yourself." We can do this...together.
I always wished I could smoke crack with out consequences. Not gonna happen. One thing my sponser told me one day after we witnessed someone in the throes of "consequences" was "...it's easier to stay sober than it is to GET sober". Get over yourself and do what you need to do. I didn't drink or smoke crack today so it's a good day.
We haven't forgotten about'cha!
Come back when you are ready:)
I have relapsed and it is hard. You just have to jump back on the wagon! Remember how good you felt sober. For me, I use some vanity, that I am not all puffy when I am sober, that I remember what I did the night before, etc. I only recently jumped back on the wagon, and I am taking it literally minute by minute....one day at a time!
Best wishes,
Christie
http://journals.aol.com/christiexdean/sc-momma
Sometimes Quickly Sometimes, everso slowly. Keep on Keeping on you are not alone sister.
Stop giving all of your power to alcohol. You CAN quit. It's just a matter of wanting to bad enough. Sounds flippant and simplistic, but it's true.
The day you decide to do WHATEVER it takes to quit drinking is the day you become sober for good.
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