Need to get out of my own head tonight
I am home alone tonight, which generally I enjoy since it is so rare that the husband and kids aren't around. Still, I'm feeling troubled today and not enjoying the solitude as much as I normally would.
I can't quite put my finger on the sadness. I'm feeling a bit compulsive, eating everything in sight. I went shopping today and yesterday and spent too much money on clothes I probably don't need. That's not really like me.
I feel fat, old, ugly.
I did go to a meeting tonight which I normally like. But I felt apart from everyone else tonight. I think I am on the pity pot a bit which isn't helpful. So a gratitude list is in order:
For many many mornings without a hangover
That I can pray when things don't feel right, instead of picking up a drink
That I can stay sober when I'm home alone (this used to be a "yahoo! Time to really drink the way I want to.." event
That I can change my weight by eating and exercising right, even if I can't change my age
That I can even afford to go shopping
That this mood too shall pass
posted by Redhead Gal at 9:10 PM
11 Comments:
hahaha I can soooo relate to this post man, of man. Just chalk it up to a bad day. Take a look at it and talk to someone.
My husband and I feel in a bit of a rut also, I brought it to his attention, and it has been bothering for some time. Like we are old boring people/??? where had my youth gone? what do we do for fun.
The other thing to check in with yourself... I know for me when it gets to that time of the month, I get emotional.
I am thinking of you, and sending you good thoughts, that you pop in a goood chick flick and relax, or take a bubble bath, or read a good book or magazine article. It will pass as it always does, just it sucks being in it at the time
Hope you feel better soon
I am laughing because I can relate... :)
I never really had PMS issues when I was younger, but as I get older it just gets worse and worse.
I hope you feel better, and soon.
Sending hugs in return.
I hope you're alright by now. Love your no. 2 on your gratitude lists.
OMG I can totally relate to this post. While I dont eat when Im upset, I certainly get the shopping horrors. I finally understand that is my way of getting out of myself and trying to feel better. It's just my disease attacking me in another way. Good for you girl for not drinking...another day sober :)
Just dropping by to say "Hi" and that I hope you're well today.
Kenny :)
I have a strange desire to be home alone all the time, and then when I actually get to be, I feel restless, strange, and a little frightened. Still looking for my "prayer"; for now, it's still Ben & Jerry's for me.
All best,
JennaM
and I quote you...That I can stay sober when I'm home alone (this used to be a "yahoo! Time to really drink the way I want to.." event
This has been my very experience! my husband goes to school at night and plays soccer so I would just wait for him to get out the house!
I am proud of you for not drinking
This is where a Duldrums list comes in handy. It's a list of things to do at times like this. I worked with my sponsor to create mine. The rule is that when you're feeling restless, bored or depressed, then you have to do something on that list. Keep doing things on the list until you are no longer in the emotional Duldrums.
The Duldrums list goes hand in hand with the Hurricaine list, which is a list of things to do when things are happening too fast, when people are going crazy around you and when tragedy strikes. Same rules apply.
Trust the process. This too shall pass.
Peace,
Dharmashanti
Come out to where the Blogosphere meets the Dharmiverse
Thank you, my friend for the vote of confident. Yes, you're right, Noor means light.
I'm a much better man now especially that I'm clean and sober.
Thank you again for dropping by and the comments.
Hey , ALL us ladies have days when we feel old fat ugly!!
I call it 'having an attack of the uglies'. If I am having a day or an hour where I feel like that I tell literally everybody i meet, ususally at work and what have you. it always end up making us both laugh, so i get to have a lot of fun on those days with these silly conversations.
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