Monday, August 20, 2007

One Year Today


Today marks one year sober for me. It has been one year since I crawled in the door of what is now my home group for the third time, after a week long drinking binge that I called a family vacation. There are pictures from that vacation that include me, but I cannot remember being there as I was in a blackout. I still burn with shame if I happen across them.

But today is not a day for shame and remorse. It's a day to celebrate!

Today I am grateful for:

One year of hangover free mornings. How did I ever stand the hangovers for so long?

The personal/spiritual growth I've experienced in the past year

AA and all the support I receive there

My online sober buddies, both bloggers and the secular sobrietists over at the Lifering site

That I am present in my life today

24 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

AMAZING!!!!!!

Soooo excited and proud of you. Thank you for sharing the miracle with us. Keep on doing what you are doing. Happy 1 year!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2:13 PM  
Blogger butterflygirl said...

Congrats!!!

5:48 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Congratulations!!

Maura

8:25 PM  
Blogger Shannon said...

HAPPY 1 YR BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

10:28 PM  
Blogger Michael said...

Happy 1st Birthday!!!
Hey it will be my birthday one week on wednesday.
Oh I had a lovely week camping, loved watching people get drunk as well, at the campsite bar they had 4 pint pitches available at the bar so that people didnt have to keep walking backwards and forward.
I just stuck to my coke and really enjoyed myself without even the thought of alcohol, well I did think if I took one just imagine the hell I could revisit...
NO THANKS

8:43 AM  
Blogger Namenlosen Trinker said...

Congratulations on reaching a major milestone!

8:54 AM  
Blogger Shannon said...

we will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it... : )
Have super good day

10:43 AM  
Blogger Kathy Lynne said...

Thanks for being an inspiration to me and getting me started on my own journey. Congratulations!

3:34 PM  
Blogger Tabitha.Montgomery said...

((one year..how liberating is that?!!!)) love Tab xo

10:13 AM  
Blogger lash505 said...

That is truly awesome congrads

12:10 AM  
Blogger Phyllis said...

I knew you could do it!
Whooot!!
Congrats!!

12:48 AM  
Blogger kel said...

How wonderful for you!! Congrats and keep on inspiring us!!!

12:45 PM  
Blogger An Irish Friend of Bill said...

Yay! Good for you!
Three cheers for Redhead Gal!

12:04 PM  
Blogger Scott M. Frey said...

happy 1 year! congrats to you and your HP!

7:29 AM  
Blogger johno said...

Congrats on your one year!! You are a walking Miracle!! hey sister, we share the same anniversary dont ya know!! :) Its amazing, this thing aint it ?

4:31 AM  
Blogger Recovery Road London said...

Excuse my lateness...

Congratulations! Wonderful. Well done you.

:-)

5:48 AM  
Blogger Scott W said...

Congratulations on 365 one at a time! That's huge!

7:08 AM  
Blogger Trudging said...

Belated congrats, I am sorry I am late.

9:52 PM  
Blogger Mama Dukes said...

Happy Happy AA Birthday

Hope you keep being good to yourself

1:30 PM  
Blogger The Patient Connection said...

Can you help with a new research project about alcoholism?

Hi

Congats on your year

We are running a research blog into the diagnosis, treatment and lifestyles of people who have been diagnosed with alcoholism.

We are really interested in the story of you or a friend’s or family member’s diagnosis. It would be really great if you could spare a few minutes to have look and share your thoughts

http://www.thepatientconnections.com/blog.asp?uid=59pbg4

Please remember that all responses are completely anonymous and this study will help shape new research into this area.

Email me if you have any queries about this project.

Thanks

Belinda
belinda.shale@thepatientconnections.com
The Patient Connection

3:34 AM  
Blogger Phil said...

Congratulations!! Praise HP, you are such a miracle and an inspiration, Gal!

Anyone who is struggling with the whole idea of recovery would do well to read your entire blog, from start to finish. Your journey has been so incredibly awesome, and you have shared every step of it here. I'm so grateful for your blog, for your experience, strength and hope -- and your example of how to do this thing and have a beautiful life.

God bless you, and may you have many more days of happiness, joy and freedom!

11:25 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

DETESTABLE NECROMANCER
You know, the message the 12 Step Paradigm tells us that we are all just powerless over our addictions, meaningless specks of offal in an endless ocean of space and matter where hydrogen atoms and bacteria of unexplained origin can turn into god as you understand him!! Oooo! It’s so exciting and uplifting to be regularly assured by Steppers in all their ineffable knowledge and function is just an accumulation of 1st Century Christianity Buchmanism & Nihilism. Oooo! It’s heart-warming, I’ll tell ya. We owe these "messengers" so terribly much that it is difficult to put into words... We can talk to dead people & consult spiritists.
9 When you enter the land the LORD your God is giving you, do not learn to imitate the detestable ways of the nations there. 10 Let no one be found among you who sacrifice his son or daughter in the fire, who practices divination or sorcery, interprets omens, engages in witchcraft, 11 or casts spells, or who is a medium or spiritist or who consults the dead. 12 Anyone who does these things is detestable to the LORD, and because of these detestable practices the LORD your God will drive out those nations before you. 13 You must be blameless before the LORD your God [Deuteronomy 18: 9-13]
Wilson was a “detestable necromancer” who talked to dead people & consulted spiritists. He was “an angel of light” and if you Steppers want what he had, keep going to 12 Step meetings & end up as zombies. I beg of you to see the True Light [John 3: 16] & have Eternal Life, not death [12 Steps].
Peace Be With You
Micky

12:19 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

THE SACRED BULL
I imagine 12 STEPPERS have sold their souls to the devil. Fortunately, I was saved through the power of Jesus Christ, but for many years had been exposed to the evil “satanic cult” (Alcoholics Anonymous) Wilson (AA) has prostituted himself & deluded many thousands (12 Step Groups) by worshipping the god Moloch (Ba’al the Sacred Bull). It all started with his (Wilson) “drug induced hallucination”….
Here are references to seances and other psychic events….
Bill would…”get” these things …long sentences, word by word would come through….” (22)
, he asked for guidance….The words began tumbling out with astonishing speed….(23) So A.A.’s 12 Steps were actually received verbatim from the demonic world. It is not surprising, then, that the effect of A.A. upon many of its members is to lead them into occult involvement. In 1958, Wilson wrote to Sam Shoemaker
Throughout A.A., we find a large amount of psychic phenomena, nearly all of it spontaneous. Alcoholic after alcoholic tells me of such experiences… run nearly the full gamut of everything we see in the books. In addition to my original mystical experience, I’ve had a lot of such phenomenalism myself.(24)
Wilson’s “original mystical experience” was his alleged “conversion” –a classic occult encounter: “Suddenly the room lit up with a great white light. I was caught up into an ecstasy…it burst upon me that I was a free man…a wonderful feeling of Presence, and I thought to myself, ‘So this is the God of the preachers! ‘ A great peace stole over me….”(25)
This was not the “God of the preachers” but the one who transforms himself “into an angel of light” (2 Cor 1l:l4)-a light that often transforms those involved in the occult. The experience was so profound that Wilson never touched alcohol again. Satan would he more than willing to deliver a man from alcoholism in this life if thereby he could ensnare him for eternity and inspire him to lead millions to the same destruction! Wilson joined the Oxford Group and regularly attended its meetings at Calvary Church (NY), pastored by Episcopalian Sam Shoemaker. Shoemaker urged his hearers to “accept God however they might conceive of him….”(26) Here was the origin of Step 3’s “God as we understood him.” God does not respond to those who call upon false gods. Jesus said, “And this is life eternal, that they might know thee, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent” (Jn 17:3). God’s judgment comes upon them “that know not God, and that obey not the gospel of our Lord Jesus Christ (2 Thes 1:8).
I will set my face against that man & his family & will cut off from their people both him & all who follow him in prostituting themselves to MolechI will set my face against the person who turns to mediums & spiritists to prostitute himself by following them, & I will cut him off from his people. (Leviticus 20: 5, 6)
Moloch the God Ba’al, the Sacred Bull, was widely worshipped in the ancient Near East and wherever Carthaginian culture extended. Baal Moloch was conceived under the form of a calf or an ox or depicted as a man with the head of a bull.
Hadad, Baal or simply the King identified the god within his cult. The name Moloch is not the name he was known by among his worshippers, but a Hebrew Moloch (in the Septuagint Greek translation of the Old Testament), or Molech (Hebrew), is no different than the word Melech or king, transformed by interposing the vowels of bosheth or ’shameful thing’. translation. The written form. He is sometimes also called Milcom in the Old Testament.I beg you Steppers to to get out while you can (12 Step) or end up as SHAPE SHIFTING REPTILES!!
Peace Be With You
Micky

12:25 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

That is FANTASTIC! Congrats on your year! YAYAY!!!!

BIG FAT CYBER SOBER HUGS TO U!

GwenR~

4:27 PM  

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