Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Squirrelly



I am feeling squirrelly of late, having lots of drinking thoughts and drinking dreams. I don't know if it's connected to my upcoming one year in a few days or what. Certainly, the addictive voice likes to tell me that now that I've gone one year, of course, I can have the occasional red wine with dinner or Margarita. After all, it was white wine that gave me so much trouble...just stay away from that!

My head is a bad neighborhood lately and recovering from surgery has kept me in it too much. I've only gotten to a meeting and a half since surgery. I will get to one tonight. I am feeling much better now, though still a little weak if I sit in one place too long. I will be back at work tomorrow. My boys come home from camp this weekend. Life should get back to being busy and that helps me get out of this bad neighborhood.

Today I am grateful for:

Many mornings of waking up without a hangover. (This is so tops on my list!)

That I recovered well from the surgery, though a little slower than anticipated.

That when I get squirrelly I know what to do

That my Dad is doing really well lately. Saw him yesterday and he had the old spark in his eye.

For Ann Lamott, whose books I've been enjoying during my lay up

For a beautiful August day that I can enjoy before I head back to the office tomorrow.

Life is good.

10 Comments:

Blogger Kathy said...

Many congratulations on almost-one-year.

I pray your recovery from surgery goes quickly and well.

None of the things really worth doing in life are easy. Hang in there.

2:35 PM  
Anonymous Brad said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog! As for your squirrelly feelings, I would like to quote my keychain that I got from treatment:

"Hang in there, baby!" (spoken by a kitty, hanging from a branch -- now isn't that just the cutest!)

7:40 PM  
Blogger dAAve said...

Double-up on those meetings if you can. If you can't, pray. Read. Then pray some more.

8:53 PM  
Blogger JennaM said...

Wow! A year has past? I'm flabbergasted. Good for you. And glad the gallbladder was identified and 86'd. Hopefully, it will make year 2 that much easier to enjoy.

All best,
JennaM

7:38 AM  
Blogger Namenlosen Trinker said...

Best wishes and prayers for your continued recovery! Both of them, actually, LOL!

11:35 AM  
Blogger recoveryroad said...

What dAAve said.

I had a trippy time approaching my 1st AA b/day. Lots of old memories, dreams and flashbacks. I got through it. I reckon you will too....

Go, go, go!

Thinking of you.

Kenny .x.

1:55 PM  
Anonymous RJ Adams said...

Sorry, Redhead Gal, I've been neglecting you lately. I had no idea you were in for surgery. I'm glad you came through it ok and that you're on the road to recovery - I guess in more ways than one.
Congratulations on your twelve months. I never doubted you could do it, and will continue till twenty-four and beyond. Your dreams are just your insecure inner child telling you you're not strong enough to live without the booze. You know that's not true. Reassure her, and explain your life has taken a new turn and doesn't need artificial stimulation any more. Then you'll find the dreams will go away.
I've been following your progress almost from the start. You're like a dear friend. I'm so proud of your success.

9:45 PM  
Blogger lash505 said...

I hope your ok...

12:10 AM  
Blogger Kathy Lynne said...

I love Anne LaMott too! That term squirelly made me miss a woman I met in AA who is on a 2 month road trip. Thanks for making me think of her. She used that description of herself alot. Sounds like you need to get to more meetings and it sounds like you are suffering from the anniversary itch I hear about. Of course, I wouldn't know......

8:53 PM  
Blogger Pam said...

ONE YEAR is so awesome! What a miracle we all are. Happy beginning to your 2nd year.

8:26 PM  

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