Catching up from vacation

I've been back from vacation a week and haven't had time to catch up. Saw plenty of elk in the Canadian Rockies, although the ones I saw had no antlers. It was a great trip and I'm proud to say that despite some temptations, I had my 8 month anniversary out there. There were a number of partying types on the trip with us and in the old days, I would have been in the middle of that. I stayed away and enjoyed the skiing, shopping, and eating. Too much eating, I'm afraid.

Today I am grateful for:

Many hangover free mornings

Waking up sober from drinking dreams and feeling quite relieved

That while I didn't make a meeting while I was in Canada, there were meetings available to me

That spring is finally here in New England

Daffodils and forsythia are blooming like crazy

Walking my crazy dog in the woods

Just wondering...

why did all the Brady girls take their stepfather's surname when their mom re-married? That was weird even for the early seventies. What kind of emotional repercussions might that have had on them, I wonder?



I'm having that kind of day, as you can see.

Today I am grateful for:

No more hangovers.

Dunkin' Donuts large coffee, cream only

I'm off on vacation to Canada skiing next week

I have the ability to work at home when I need to

I manage to get some work done when I do

Drinking Dreams

I keep having drinking dreams. I don't feel close to drinking so I'm not sure why I keep having them. Last night, it seemed so real. I was in the dream, at the liquor store, buying wine...When I woke up, I had such a moment of panic.

Today I am grateful for the fact that my dreams were only just that and that I am sober today.

Restlessness

I'm feeling somewhat restless today; not sure what's going on with me. I have plenty of things that I could be doing--my house is a disorganized mess, the spring clean up in the yard could be started--but I can't seem to focus. The idea of a drink popped into my head a couple of times too.

I got myself to my usual Friday meeting and that helped. But I didn't share what was going on with me and that was a mistake. I think I may just turn in early tonight.

Today I am grateful for:

Months of hangover free mornings

Having today off from work

That "24" is on DVD

That stew tastes even better a few days later

That I am learning to pray rather than drink